I’d like to start from the beginning so here goes
When I was 16 I read a book called Sarah’s fortune. The book described what it felt like to lose your virginity. I decided after reading this book that I was going to lose my virginity so that I could get through the pain until sex started to feel good.
I got into a relationship with the second person I slept with. I wanted the fairytale romeo and juliet love. Little did I know that there is one in a million chances of your first love being your true love. At first I was very shy, still retaining my innocence for quite some time. I remember when I found his porn stash for the first time. I ripped it to shreds. It makes me laugh thinking about that. I never liked receiving oral back then but liked to give it. Later in this relationship I grew up and began to want to receive more and when I didn’t I felt used. I wanted to explore my sexuality more so I left him.
My second serious boyfriend told me he had it but that I couldn’t catch it unless it was visible.
I believed him.
I never really used condoms. I was too shy to push their usage in casual relationships and, I never really thought about how easy one could catch an STD despite catching chlamydia once. I was on the pill and happy not to fall pregnant which was a bigger concern.
Later in my sexual history after finding a great doctor who better informed me I began to use them in one night stands but not with people I knew. Unfortunately it didn’t help
After coming back from a trip to Sydney, just after I’d moved to Adelaide I looked down and freaked out at what I saw. I called my fabuluous doc on the Gold Coast and he told me it was probably herpes and to get it looked at.
I’d had a threesome as well as a one night stand in Sydney and although I used protection, I didn’t use it orally.
It’s quite sad that as I grew and started demanding and enjoying oral sex as opposed to just giving and hoping to receive, I contract a nasty virus possibly by receiving oral sex.
With my current consort we have swapped strains which has made it harder than it already was. I only had HSV1 he has HSV2. Now both of us have both. HSV2 is a lot nastier and a lot itchier. On the upside I haven’t had a coldsore on my face.
So there you have it. The events leading up to and possible suspects of how I contracted herpes.
Although at times I feel lonely and wish I had more than just my partner and my doctor to talk to it has allowed me to move my focus to more substantial areas and I am now doing a lot more with my life than I was prior to contracting it.