I think i’ve just had an epiphany. Maybe things just have more perspective than they did. I’m healthy, I’m not dying, I am still going to live a long life.
Yes, I have herpes; I will have it for life. I also have staph; that will also be in my system for life. It doesn’t often bother me either breakout wise. But the staph will probably bother me more coz it’s usually somewhere visable like on my face, which in turns make me self conscious. Though I won’t pass that one on by having sex. But again, I am not dying. I still have a life. Sure it’s changed now, but as someone said to me it’ll help me tell the difference between the people who want to know me and people who just want to sleep with me. I agree with them. If someone thinks I’m worth it then herpes shouldn’t get in the way of that. I’m not saying that the rejection side of things won’t be tough, it will. But it doesn’t change what I want out of life. It just may make me a little more careful of who I let in.
I’m alive and have a long life ahead. Not everyone has that. I should be thankful that it’s not anything life threatening. I am thankful.